today ive not been verywell in the head. ive been selfharming for the last 3 days punching myself and other things and using thing to hit myself. ive also been starving myself since sunday night. i just cant be bothered eating and doing this blog is the only motivating thing ive done today. ive also been to the phycologists. ive eating my tea today not out of choice but my famil invited friends over for a meal and i couldn't get out of it. now im hungry so im going to have a pizza as well.